The Birth of our EARTH… Our amazing God, "The Great I Am" created the earth (Genesis 1:1) and all living beings, the earth was "born"… the spirit first, and then came into existence the physical. The earth acknowledges the existence of its Creator, God, and "obeys" God’s law (Proverbs ). It could even be said… that the earth underwent a baptism of immersion in water at the time of Noah's flood (Genesis ).All life had it's ‘Genesis’ beginning with God the Creator of Heaven. And, all living things were created first spiritually before they were ‘birthed’ into life upon the earth.
The womb is a place of creation… Indeed, the first Creation story in Genesis 1:1-2 describes a most womb-like setting, complete with darkness and waters. There God's spirit is first found brooding over the waters. The Hebrew word for this brooding "spirit" is "ruah," a feminine noun in a language that has few feminine nouns! The Hebrew definitions for the "ruah" include: breath, spirit, wind, sign and symbol of life, animation, vivacity, vigour, courage, patience, prophetic spirit, spirit of God, and divine wisdom. These are strong feminine words for life-giving, life-sustaining Spirit/Breath of God… And this is how God is first encountered in the scriptures: a creative Spirit, animating life, courage, patience and wisdom.
The Hebrew word for "womb" is from the same root as the spirit/breath word: "ruah" becomes "rechem" (womb). In the plural form, the word means "compassion," "love," and "mercy," while the adjective "rachum" means "merciful."
The earth was created spiritually in heaven before being created physically here in our solar system… We read in Job 38 how God is questioning Job about the Creation… God asked; “OUT OF WHOSE WOMB CAME THE ICE? And the frost of the heavens who ‘fathered’ it?The waters are hidden like stone, and the face of the deep is frozen (icebergs)” Job 38: 29 – 30. The ice comes out of ‘earth's womb’ through the north and south poles. Norwegian fishermen describe how great rivers dump into the Arctic Ocean, within the North Polar opening, but the river mouths freeze over in the winter. Come summer, they thaw out and the river waters shove the icebergs out into the Arctic Ocean where they cover the entire Arctic basin.
We learn in Genesis 2:5 that every “plant of the field,” before it was in the earth, and every “herb of the field” before it grew, was created first spiritually before they were created physically upon the earth.
God says in Jeremiah 51:15 – 16, “He has made the earth by His power; He has established the world by His wisdom, and has stretched out the heavens by His understanding. When He utters His voice, there is a multitude of waters in the heavens; and He causes the mists to ascend from the ends of the earth. He makes lightnings with rain and brings forth the wind out of Histreasures. These water mists (vapours) condense into ice and snow and fall onto the Greenland and Antarctic icepacks to the awesome depth of three kilometres in thickness!
Man in his folly desires to be “free as a bird,” not realizing that birds are not free… They are in complete submission to the divine decrees relating to them. The ancient author, Job, reminds man concerning this with these words: “But ask the animals, and they will teach you, or the birds of the air, and they will tell you; or speak to the earth, and it will teach you, or let the fish of the sea inform you,” Job12:7 – 8.
Have we ever wondered why it is so refreshing to be out in the woods or beside the lake? The answer is simple… Everything in nature is doing exactly what the Father in heaven has commanded. The birds are building nests and migrating just as they were instructed. All nature is straining to bring forth fruit and to accomplish its other God-given functions.
When we consider man, we begin to realize the true dimensions of the ‘fall’ recorded in Genesis 3. We find that man, unlike the animals, the birds, and all the rest of the created order, is not responding according to the divine program. He is, in fact, “doing his own thing.” What if the birds or animals chose such a course? What if the birds simply said, “This year we refuse to fly those thousands of miles in order to migrate.” The answer would be obvious...They would all freeze to death in the northern countries or perish for lack of food.
Consider this… if God by HIS Word can give “birth” to the earth… He can also give “birth” to a nation! “Who has heard a thing like this? Who has seen things like these? Will the earth be brought forth in one day? Or will a nation be born at once? For Zion travailed and also brought forth her sons.” Isaiah 66:8
Egypt – Israel’s womb…
The Hebrew word “birth-stool” is “obnayim” literally means “the two stone-tablets” (Exodus1:16). These stone birth-blocks were an ancient Egyptian custom for use by a woman in labour. They were supports against which the woman pressed her feet, or crouched against, during the birth of her baby. Israel in Egypt was like a baby in the womb.
We found it VERY interesting that the Hebrew word “obnayim” (birth stool) is also used in Jeremiah 18:3 and there it is translated as “potter's wheel.” The word is used in both places in the dual form, which suggests that both the potter's wheel and the birth stool were made from two discs… “O house of Israel, can I not do with you as this potter? Says Jehovah; Behold, as the clay in the potter's hands, so are you in My hand, O house of Israel.” Jeremiah 18:6
This is what the LORD says; “He who made you, who formed you in the womb, and who will help you! Do not be afraid, Jacob, My servant, Jeshurun, whom I have chosen. Isaiah 44:2; “And formed thee from the womb”…This is equivalent to the declaration to Israel that He (God) was their Maker, or Creator. It means that from the very beginning of their history as a people. God had formed and moulded all their institutions, and directed all things in regard to them… as much as He is the former of the body from the commencement of its existence. It may be observed that the words, ’from the womb,’ are joined by some interpreters with the phrase, ‘that formed thee,’ meaning, that God had been the originator of all their customs, privileges, and laws, from the beginning of their history; and by others with the phrase, ‘will help thee,’ meaning, that from the commencement of their existence as a nation, He had been Israel’s helper.“Jesurun”…means Israel; this name was given to that people by Moses, Deuteronomy 32:15; 33:5;33:26.
God’s creative womb is mentioned in Jeremiah 31:20;Job 38:29 and Deuteronomy 32:18 refers to “the God who gave you birth,” while in Isaiah 46:3-4, God says, “(you) have been borne by me from your birth, carried from the “womb”… I have made and I will bear, I will carry and I will save.”
“Is (Ephraim) Israel my dear son? My darling child? For the more I speak of him (Israel), the more I do remember him. Therefore My womb trembles for him (Israel); I will truly show compassion upon him.” (Jeremiah 31:20) Here embedded in ancient Jewish tradition… is a profound picture of God as a mother whose womb quivers and moves and trembles in passion for her child (Israel)…when God’s womb moves on behalf of Israel.
Moses, the founder of Israel's nationhood, is described in the New Testament as being “learned in all the wisdom of the Egyptians” at age 40 and powerful in speech and action (Acts 7:22). Within this context then we must understand his first direct encounter with God as an 80-year-old “stutterer” before a burning thorn bush in a desert that he had known for 40 years (Exodus 3:2-5). Moses lived in Midian for 40 years as he prepared spiritually for his prophetic destiny as leader of the exodus. During this time he married Zipporah and had a son, Gershom (Exodus – 22). Similarly, the nation of Israel was like a baby in the womb in Egypt ready to be born. God promised Abraham a great nation and foretold Israel's slavery for 400 years, the punishment, and deliverance from Egypt(Genesis – 14).Israel lived in Egypt 430 years (Exodus 12:40 – 41; Galatians 3:17). Interesting… the number 400… is the round number, which means weakness, and 430… is the exact number, 30 isthe 12th letter ofthe Hebrew alphabet “Lamed” and represents“Shepherd staff with hook” or “goad, staff, authority control,whereas 43… means to be fulfilled!
“Listen to Me, O house of Jacob, And all the remnant of the house of Israel, who have been carried out from the womb and have been carried out from the uterus,” Isaiah 46:3. Israel in Egypt was like a baby in the womb… Jacob's journey to Egypt - which is described as a “descent”… “his sons, and his sons' sons with him, his daughters, and his sons' daughters, and all his seed brought he with him into Egypt” Genesis 46:7 - is the planting of the seed. The nation is conceived in Egypt during the years of bondage, until God, like a midwife, delivers it from that country's womb. The delivery is protracted: The mother opposes it and God must work hard to deliver the newborn - Israel.
The Lord carried Israel like a baby through the wilderness wanderings… When it was time for the nation of Israel to be born, they were screaming in Egypt like a woman in labour. God heard the groaning of the people and remembered the Abrahamic Covenant (Exodus 2:23 – 25; Numbers 20:14 – 16). The Angel of Jehovah appeared to Moses at the burning bush and explained His Plan for delivering the congregation of Israel from Egyptian bondage and giving them the Promised Land (Exodus 3:1 – 17).
At the burning bush Moses was empowered by God to perform his special mission. Moses was to ask Pharaoh for permission to go three days into the wilderness to worship the Lord God with sacrifices. However, the Lord told Moses that Pharaoh would not let the people go except under compulsion (Exodus – 19). So, the Lord would strike Egypt with His hand. The hand of God is a sign of punishment. He would strike Egypt with His supernatural acts. The word in Hebrew ‘pala’ means supernatural, extraordinary acts, or wonders. It is often translated miracles or wonders (Exodus ). Further the Israelites were to ask for gifts from the Egyptians before leaving, and the Lord would give them spoils for 400 years of back wages (Exodus 3:21 – 22).
The splitting of the Red Sea creates “a passageway” through which the newborn infant (Israel) can emerge into the world. Furthermore, the first sound the “offspring” makes after emergence from the mother's womb is transcribed into the mighty epic that Moses sings after crossing to the other side of the Red Sea. This depiction of the Exodus also has ramifications for the next stage: the Israelites' journey through the desert toward the Promised Land, for God has come “to... take Him a nation from the midst of another nation.”
The birth of Israel is especially unusual in that it took place within the womb of a hostile nation!
The Exodus is likened in the Scripture as the birth of a child. The prophet Hosea gives this analogy… “When Israel was a youth I loved him, and out of Egypt I called My son.” (Hosea 11:1). In the first section of the book of Exodus, we see God's acquisition of His people from the land of Egypt. In the rest of the book of Exodus, we see God giving the constitution of the new nation. When we come to the book of Joshua, we find the taking of the land. The birth of the Nation of Israel was unlike the birth of any other nation in history…It was a SUPERNATURAL birth!
“You (Israel) are My witnesses,” says Jehovah, “and My servant whom I have chosen; that you may know and believe Me, and understand that… I amHe. Before Me no God was formed, nor shall there be after Me.”Isaiah 43:10
1. The Supernatural Growth of the Child in the Womb of Egypt.... Only 70 Israelites went down into Egypt in 1876 B.C; Exodus 1:5 (75 including Joseph and his family). 430 years later (Exodus ) about two and half million Israelites come out! There is no other place in the ancient world that this spectacular growth could have taken place because only Egypt had the natural resources to feed such a large group.
2. The Supernatural Preservation of the Child in the Womb of Egypt… The armies of the 16th Dynasty of Egypt had marched through Canaan all the way to the EuphratesRiver. Egypt was the most powerful country in the world. Furthermore, Egypt is a very reluctant mother. She does not like this growth which is springing up inside her and she seeks to destroy it. A decree is issued that all of the male Hebrew children are to be killed (Exodus – 16). This solution to the “Jewish problem” is unsuccessful and Egypt fails in her attempted abortion.
3. The Supernatural Birth of the Child from the Womb of Egypt… Now that the foetus is fully formed, it becomes time for the birth of the new nation of Israel. However, Egypt continues to be a reluctant mother. She does not want to give birth to this child which has grown within her. Therefore the Lord brings upon her the travail of the ten plagues (Exodus chapters 7 – 11) so that she must give birth in spite of herself.
4. The Supernatural Protection of the Child once it has been born… Israel comes out of Egypt and she is utterly defenceless... She has no chariots or military establishment to protect herself from outside attack. Furthermore, Egypt is still trying to destroy her. When Israel finds herself trapped by Egypt at the Red Sea, she faces the greatest army of the ancient world. Egypt has the biggest chariot corps, the most modern weaponry and the sharpest crack troops of any military establishment in existence. Therefore, when Israel comes out victorious through the Red Sea while Egypt is destroyed… and only God can receive the glory (Deuteronomy - 34).
The ‘Exodus Event’ is perhaps the most significant single event in the Old Testament. It represented, not only the birth of the nation of Israel… but the very redemption of God’s covenant people.
The “rebirth” of the nation of Israel in our day is unique among all the nations… The entire nation was destroyed twice, but both times it came back into existence. Not only was the nation destroyed twice but both times nearly all the people were taken captive into foreign countries. Yet they returned to the land.
All this points to the uniqueness of Israel, as it is not a nation like other nations. Israel should have ended as a nation… and probably as a people in 586 BC, but it survived. Israeldefinitely should have ended in 70 AD, but as the ancient Bible prophets write the nation was literally “reborn” after ceasing to be a nation for almost 1900 years, on May 15th, 1948, Israel the nation was again reborn. There is simply no nation like Israel!
Wherever you look, the topic of Israel is a contentious issue! Most people… all over the world consider Israel to be a threat to global security and would probably like the State of Israel to vanish.
Israel the “rejected Womb”…!
Every genuine work of God must involve planting the seed, waiting for gestation, and then, in travail and labour, the birthing of the new creation. As we consider the appearance of the church of the Messiah Yeshua (Jesus Christ) upon the earth following His Resurrection, we must recognize that this church did not drop from heaven nor was it created in a vacuum. The church, the company of the redeemed who were washed by the blood and sanctified by the Spirit was “born.” The birth of the church necessitated all of the above. The divine seed had to fall into the ground and die in order to bear fruit, and the womb out of which the church came forth… was none else but the national frame of Israel.
While many acknowledge Israel’s physical exile of the last nineteen hundred years, only a few recognize that the nation also experienced a ‘spiritual exile’ as well. The calling, the exclusive standing with God, and the anointing now passed to another at the turn of the Christian era. Out of Israel God birthed an agency through which to demonstrate His kindness and His purposes to a lost world… and thus the church stepped into Israel’s role as “priest.” As in any birth the intensifying pains, the trauma and the laying down of ones life took their toll.
Israel, now an exhausted bloody womb, collapsed and was taken out of the way… The young church vibrant and anointed spread her across the heathen nations, bringing the life of heaven in her wings. …But what about Israel the old womb? It was not to be forsaken forever… was it?Romans 11:1 “God has not rejected His people, has He? May it never be?” That historical womb is to rise one last time on the face of the earth in order to birth the last of God’s new creation, even as He did the first. The very nation that once gave birth – now is in need to be “birthed by another.” Who will provide the womb? There is a young and loving church whom God IS calling forth to lend her womb as a chamber of travail and tears to old and hopeless Israel, that she might bear a son. Who is this son? And what name did they give him but ‘Obed’, he is the father of Jesse, the father of David. Obed means ‘a worker, a servant, one who perfectly does the will of one who sends him.’ Indeed, such shall be the virtue and quality of character which will be evident in Israel’s last son.Israel is destined to give birth one last time at the end of the age… And, as that which she birthed at the first century transformed the world so shall it be in the last.
“Hear this cry, “we are pregnant, we writhed in labour, we gave birth, as it were, only to wind. We could not accomplish deliverance for the earth nor were the inhabitants of the world born” Isaiah 26:18.This is Israel’s historical cry. The nation that was called to represent God, to accomplish deliverance for the nations to be a blessing to all the families of man, is crying in frustration! All her labours, her sacrifice and her suffering century after century produced absolutely nothing. The six million who died in the Holocaust brought no deliverance for the earth, and sixty five years of national suffering and sorrow gave birth as it was only to wind. Nothing was accomplished. “Your dead will live; their corpses will rise. You who lie in the dust, awake and shout for joy, for your dew is as the dew of the dawn, and the earth will give birth to the departed spirits.(Isaiah 26:19) Thus as the prophecy unfolds there is hope and a promise of resurrection life and through the old vessel.
Israel is in need of a womb… a living, loving, life giving womb… What is the Church becoming…? “Leavers” or “cleavers” (Orpah or Ruth) …? The line which is the revelation and the commitment of God’s design is being drawn… these very days in the heart of Christianity. Compromise and fence riding will not be tolerated on this issue as the stakes are too high, and the consequences will either mean glory or shame. Prepare to take your stand!
The Jew is the natural seed of Abraham, and the church is the spiritual seed.
Together they are meant to represent the heavens and the earth, which is why the promise to Abraham was that his seed could be as “the stars of the heavens (Jew), and as the sand which is on the seashore (Gentile),” Genesis . When the barrier between Jew and Gentile is overcome, it will single the overcoming of the gulf between the ‘spiritual’ and ‘earthly realm’ so that God who is spirit may establish His eternal habitation with man. The Jews are a barometer of humanity - embattled within and without. As Paul said, “From the standpoint of the Gospel they are enemies for your sake,” Romans 11:28. They were hardened, or made hard to reach, for the sake of the Gospel. That is, the Jew represents the “acid test” of our message. Until we have a Gospel that will make the Jew jealous… we do not really have the goods yet. That is why we are exhorted to preach the Gospel to the Jew first. When we preach to the Jew we will quickly find out the quality of our message.
The wounds that have been inflicted upon the Jews by the church are some of the most deep and tragic in history. We have made our job much more difficult. It will take an unprecedented humility on the part of the church, which will enable the Lord to extend on unprecedented grace… and trust us with an unprecedented anointing, to reach the Jews. That was precisely God’s plan. We cannot fulfill our commission as the church without the Jews. They must be grafted back in!
As an embryo may not be severed from the womb and made to grow in an artificial, external place, likewise the ‘Promised Seed, Yeshua HaMashiach (Jesus Christ), must not be severed from the womb inside which God planted Him; the Jewish people, the people of Israel.
Similarly just as the nation of Israel “a baby in the womb in Egypt” grew strong even while enduring much hardship and persecution, until their Exodus to the Promised Land of Israel… the Church, born in Jerusalem (Israel) had to endure much hardship and persecution by Rome in what is today called the land of Turkey where the Seven Churches of chapters… Revelation 1 – 3 was situated.
Hebrews 11; the great “faith” chapter gives us a good description of the sufferings and enduring of both. Jew and Gentile had their “beginning” in the land of Israel and their “end” is both connected to Jerusalem and the land. (Revelations 3:12; 21:2)
We must remember that Rome is not the womb within which the Body of Messiah was ‘born’ and still today continues to grow… It was, is, and remains the Commonwealth of Israel until all of God’s plans has been accomplished and until we will hear His voice saying; “It is finished!”
If, one member of ‘the Body’ hurts… ALL members hurt! Since the Body of Messiah is WITHIN Israel… the whole ‘Body’ hurts as well. For example if a pregnant woman is injured in the stomach… does only the woman hurt? Is only she injured? Or does the child growing in her womb get injured as well? Certainly, it could even trigger the child’s premature birth!God has called us together as Jew and Gentile… the One New Man! And we as the true Body of Christ must honour His Word by supporting Israel in every way we possibly can... God has promised to bless those who bless Israel!
Israel was chosen as an ‘example nation’ by God – an older brother in God’s family. The church has much to learn from God’s dealings with Israel, both in a positive and negative sense. A shining example in obedience and a model of chastisement in disobedience… Israel remains a source of edification for those in the church who have ears to hear and eyes to see. “Many people shall come and say, ‘Come, and let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, to the house of the God of Jacob; He will teach us His ways, and we shall walk in His paths.’ For out of Zion shall go forth the law and the Word of the Lord from Jerusalem.” Isaiah 23
There are some in the Body of Christ who teach that God no longer sees any special significance in Israel or His original covenant people, the Jews… Among the Scriptures that are used to support this view is the parable told by Yeshua found in Luke, Chapter 20.
Yeshua (Jesus) describes the dilemma of a man who planted a vineyard, rented it out to vine growers, and then went on a journey for a long time. The owner sent three slaves, and each requested his rightful payment. The slaves were mistreated, and finally, the owner sent his own son. When the vine growers saw his son, they said, “This is the heir, let’s kill him and take his inheritance.” So they took him out of the vineyard and killed him. Finishing the parable, Yeshua said, “Therefore what will the owner of the vineyard do to them? He will come and destroy those vinedressers and give the vineyard to others.” (Luke 20: 15-16) This same parable, recorded in Matthew’s gospel, is followed by Yeshua saying, “Therefore I say to you, the kingdom of God will be taken from you and given to a nation (Greek: ethne or ‘people’) bearing the fruits of it.” (Matthew 21:43) These passages have been used to show that God intended to take His Kingdom away from the Jews and give it to the GentileChurch. Yeshua’ (Jesus) words indicate that God would indeed give His Kingdom to others, but to whom did Yeshua say God would give the Kingdom?
God’s Kingdom was not taken from Israel and given exclusively to Gentile Christians… God took the priestly administration of His Kingdom from the Levitical priesthood and gave it to Yeshua (Jesus) and His own personally trained Jewish disciples. Yeshua told His disciples “Do not fear, little flock, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.” (Luke 12:32) These loyal friends of Yeshua were the ones He knew would follow Him to the cross and beyond.
It was to the disciple Peter, a Jewish fisherman from Galilee, that Yeshua gave the “keys to the Kingdom of Heaven.” After Yeshua’ (Jesus’) ascension Peter used these Kingdom “keys” to open the doors of the Kingdom to the Gentiles at the home of Cornelius in Caesarea. According to the book of Acts, the Messianic Jewish leaders in Jerusalem were at first shocked to hear of Peter’s actions. When he explained carefully to them how God had lead him, “they quieted down, and glorified God, saying ‘well then God has granted to the Gentiles alsothe repentance that leads to life.” (Acts ) The key words are “to the Gentiles also,” meaning with the Messianic Jews not in place of them. Gentiles were added to the original Jewish disciples, sharing in their inheritance but NOT replacing them.
Considering the miraculous birthing of the nation of Israel and the cracking of a shell of blindness and isolation 2000 years old… we must expect resistance, hardship and warfare to accompany the event. Indeed, that warfare focuses on the issue of the land of Israel, the re-gathering of the people to the land in our century, and the spiritual awakening of the nation in the land!
The battle over the Land… How simple it would be to analyse and define the mystery of the Jew if the issue could be limited to the mystical and spiritual realm alone. Books could be written, lectures given, and conferences held without ever having to apply our convictions in practical down to earth terms. In other words, if Israel was but a homeless people group and Jewish-ness only a religious culture, then one could understand but it isn’t that simple.Israel is also a land – a very tangible piece of real estate in which dreams becomes reality.
In Isaiah’s vision of the approaching Messianic age, he wrote, "Then it will happen on that day that the Lord will again recover the second time with His hand the remnant of His people, who will remain, from Assyria, Egypt, Pathros, Cush, Elam, Shinar, Hamath and from the islands of the sea. And He will lift up a STANDARD for the nations, and will assemble the banished ones of Israel, and will gather the dispersed of Judah from the four corners of the earth." (Isaiah 11: 11-12,) Indeed, in preparation for the unfolding of the blessed Messianic reign of Yeshua (Jesus) over the whole earth, Isaiah pinpoints the fact that the re-gathering of the Jewish people from the four corners of the earth is to serve as "a standard for the nations." Thus, on the threshold of the world’s greatest spiritual awakening and conflict (which will characterize the last days), God has sovereignly placed this supernatural event… the re-gathering of Israel, to serve as a banner – a divine statement made to draw the attention of the nations and the affection of the church to the Lord’s sovereignty and faithfulness.
Through Israel, God has set about to prove to an evil and unbelieving world the reality of His endless love and sovereign authority in the affairs of men and nations. The very fact that spiritual principles govern and determine political, economic and strategic developments in the Middle East today is divine evidence of the reality of God and His eternal plan.
The promises pertaining to the "Spiritual Restoration" of Israel have yet to be realized – a fulfilment which, in fact, has already begun. We read in Ezekiel’s prophecy that the natural healing of the nation will precede the spiritual healing. The prophet describes a people that who are first gathered from the four corners of the earth, then established with their ancient land, claiming and cultivating it, and only then will they be spiritually revived.(Ezekiel 36: 24 – 27)This term then is the line drawn between the natural and the spiritual revival… the hinge upon which the ancient gates will swing; ushering in Israel’s ultimate healing.
As in the case with every facet of life and creation, labour and travail will always accompany the coming for of new life! And often it could be said that the greater the battle, the greater the gain!
We most sincerely believe that God WILL bless you for your faithfulness and love for His land and His chosen people. God’s Word is true! He IS watching to see how the nations are treating His people… and God will have mercy on Israel through Gentile believers acting as mediators towards them. This is one of the most amazing revelations ever given to the church – an opportunity to do something that carries the highest priority in the heart of God. Yet… sadly, so few have seen the potential and the rewards of serving God in this manner, as agents of mercy to Israel!
We hope that you enjoy and become more informed by our work. We serve an awesome God and we are humbled by this opportunity to bring you this information. With Shalom to you and your family always,
Alf & Julie Saunders
15th June, 2013
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